Becoming a parent is scary. However, it is the most amazing thing in the whole world. Being able to watch Lana grow and develop into her own little personality is so much fun. It’s also quite daunting because I’m starting to see new things every day. Lana’s at that age now where she’s diving into independence which terrifies me! However, there are some highlights that make my heart melt with pride.
One of my favourite things in the world is to just sit and watch. I love people watching anyway, but watching Lana – especially when she doesn’t know – is fascinating. She’s learning to crawl at the moment which is cause for plenty of hilarious entertainment. The determination in her eyes when she sees something – usually my laptop – she wants to get to is so funny.
I often wonder what she’s thinking when she sees her toys across the room and wants to get them. Or what she’s thinking of doing with a toy she already has in her hand. Sometimes when I watch her I can tell what she’s trying to do, but can’t quite get right. She’ll want to put a toy in her mouth, but miss because her distance perception is still synchronising. As I write this, I’m currently watching her eat a sandwich and she’s demolishing it like I’m going to steal it from her.
Sometimes when I’m making her lunch I can hear her laughing at herself from the other room. When I walk in she’s sat with her favourite sheep toy, shaking it erratically, laughing her socks off at the noise. Knowing she can now entertain herself is scary to me. She doesn’t need me to rattle her toy for her to laugh at, she now does it herself. It’s wonderful to see her develop the confidence to do these things, and I know I can still do them, but she loves doing them herself now.
When she wakes up in the morning I love going in to see her. I greet her with a big smile on my face and a very enthusiastic “good morning!”. However, any parent will know that deep down inside you’re crying because it’s 6:20am. But when I see her little face popping up over her cot railing, the smile becomes a real one. She’ll smile back as soon as she sees us and gets overly excited. In those few seconds, my day is already made.
Each and every day her confidence and independence is growing. I find it terrifying that a 6-month-old can know what they do and don’t want and have an attitude developed already. She’s discovering new ways of doing things and moving around all time time. It can be quite entertaining when she gets confused about why she can’t put her leg over her head! One of my favourite things ever was when she discovered her reflection for the first time, I’ll never forget the confused joy on her face.
The things I’ve mentioned today outweigh any tiresome nights, tantrums and poopy nappies. Each moment is different from the next with parenthood, but I wouldn’t swap it for anything in the world!
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